Life Goes On...

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As you go along with your life, there would come a time that you would find yourself stuck in an absolutely infuriating rut and you wonder why and how in the world did you ever get yourself into this hellhole....

that is where i am right now...

i may never know the answers on the why and the how..... or i may know it but i just ignore what my sub conscious mind is telling me... coz' i still like to believe that there's a perfectly good reason behind it all...

i keep on giving myself what i think are valid reasons why i got stuck here...

give me a break... i just fell in love... deeply, madly and truly in love....

i knew it was wrong... it was not right in time... no, not just the time... it was really not right in the first place...but what could i do... i just felt it... and it was so strong it controlled me... lifted my spirits so high and then in just a wink of an eye, i was in the ground... and now that the roller coaster ride is over, i feel so all alone... so sad... so lonely... and so alone....

but as the saying goes............................... LIFE GOES ON !!!!

as the day ends, i realized i'm still in one piece.... i still survived the loneliness and emptiness that i thought would kill me every minute... perhaps it is really true that .... what doesn't kill me will even make me a stronger person. coz i realized that despite of it all, i'm still here...

still surviving... still living... still dreaming....

i know i could be happy again.... at the right time, with the right person, in the right relationship....

and as this day ends, i pray to high heavens, "Lord, let me survive tomorrow once again."