recap

its been quite a while since i last updated my blog... just to give you recap:

Thursday, July 13

M was back to his old self... he constantly e-mailed me from morning until the end of the day... and that was non-stop... sharing me his thoughts and being just sweet....

Friday, July 14

M was Ok in the morning... he continued to e-mail me minute per minute... but in the afternoon, he was in a bad mood... just before office hours end, he e-mailed me that he cannot attend the bowling tournament because he had a headache... and i was shocked... we, the team, needed him badly because that was the semi final round.. so i pleaded him to come...

and i regret doing that... he played badly... his score was very low and so does his mood... he never talked to me the entire evening and he went home without even saying goodbye... he was so devastated because of how he played... and partly, i blamed myself... his top ten standing would surely be affected... as i mentioned before, he was number 1... and i know, WAS is the right term to use...

i felt bad that the Team lost the game... we will compete next week for the runner-up standing and not for the No. 1 position...

but i felt even worse for m... because i know that he already lost his chance of having that number 1 trophy...

Over the weekend, i was thinking of him...

Monday, July 17

i didnt get enough sleep so i took a leave in the morning... my husband, the Rock (as i will call him here), also did... and oh, i think i never mentioned that the Rock and M is on the same Department...

When the Rock and I came to office in the afternoon... M was in an unusual mood again... he barely talked or e-mailed me... He just asked why the Rock and I were never able to report to work in the morning and give a hint that he is thinking that we did something the night before... how i wish that it was jealousy that's eating him... he never showed that emotion to me... not ever...

and when i told him that we didnt do anything the night before... he never e-mailed back...

Late afternoon, the result of bowling came out... it was already the final standing for individual bowlers... From being No. 1 consistently, he dropped to No. 10 (as the final standing)... that was because of his poor play last Friday... i know he took it badly...

Ironically, the Rock got the number 1 position...

M went home without saying goodbye...


Tuesday, July 18

today, all he ever e-mailed me was "good morning"... and its almost 4pm...

i feel sad... and i wish we could fix this soon...