I have been trying to write something since the other week and up to now I only have scraps... I cannot seem to find the drive to write and describe what happened and yet I could feel my mind so full of them....
we had a chance to talk about what had happened ... he continued to deny everything ... he still said he was innocent and that he was not lying... Cola and him were not together that day...
last week, i gave him another chance... i forgive him...
i did that so i can gauge what i am really feeling towards him after the day of break-up...
i dont know if what i found out is good news or not....
..... i was not excited
..... i never care if he calls or e-mail me
..... there was no more spark
and oh, before i forget, M had separated with his wife... physically (not in papers yet)
and im glad its not because of me....
we were separated, too, when that happened....
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and you know why i gave him another chance?....
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nope. not to own him completely...
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i agree to be with him again because i dont want to give Cola the full triumph of having him completely.....
she doesnt deserve to be happy...
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call me sadistic or selfish....
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but a bitch like her doesnt deserve a man loving him alone....
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(i am calling her bitch because thats what she is showing me whenever M is not around... a bitch!)
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but sadly, our reconciliation didnt last longer than 5 days....
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we fought again and i ended it again....
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despite of him saying sorry repeatedly... i still ended it.
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and this time, i dont care anymore if Cola would have him completely.
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THE BITCH DESERVES THE BEAST!!!
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