life

Cola and M's relationship is becoming visible in the office...

if you ask me if i am feeling hurt, my answer would be ................... i don't know...

i admit i miss M...

i miss his sweetness...
i miss his E-Mails...
i miss his phone calls...
i miss his jokes....


BUT, i dont want him back anymore...

No... partly, i want him back so i can get even with Cola... Until now, i still hate her so much that i dont want her to be happy...

But partly, i dont want him back because i dont want to hurt myself anymore...


I already faced the fact that M doesnt love me...

he never did and he never will...


he wanted me bacause he needs me...

and im not sure if he will still want me if i dont attend to his needs...

i guess not.



i just miss him.... THAT's ALL!


and yes, i am still sad and lonely....


ohh, life....