Hello, Kerry..

Hello, Kerry... Thanks for asking my whereabouts....

I was having a hard time during the first quarter of my pregnancy so i was really not in the mood to blog... But now i feel better...

But even if i was not blogging, i still take time to read your blog from time to time (just too lazy to comment though) and i am really glad that you are on your way to full recovery...

i know you can do it... you are too good and i know you'll be blessed...

hey, we just fell in love and we just loved the other person so much... maybe a mistake but never a sin...

anyway, i am still praying for you... everyday, you are included on my prayers...

i wish you'll be happy soon...

anyway, what happened to jazzy?... he just left the blogger's world without saying goodbye...

regards and always take care...

i'm back... to give you updates

for those of you who missed me................. i'm back!!!

so much had happened to my life...

so much that i really dont know where to begin...

Last November, i was really frustrated about what had happened betwwen M and me...

I was not able to tell you guys that prior to that day (last week of october or first week of November), the Rock (my husband) and i talked about us which ended up in bed...

Last December, i found out that i was pregnant...

With THE ROCK, of course!!!!... Definitely it was not M's baby because the last time we did it was last August and i was just more than a month preggy when i found out...


Anyway, The Rock and i talked again and we decided to start anew again...

And that day, i realized i was still in love with him... as he was with me...

He changed... I changed.... FOR THE BETTER!!!

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My early stage of pregnancy was very difficult... the morning sickness was terrible... i could not get out of bed without getting dizzy and without the terrible headache... everytime i eat, i vomit...

i was miserable....

but i accepted all that... i just told myself that it was the price i need to pay for being unfaithful...

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the Rock doesnt know yet about the cheating... i dont know if i will ever have the courage to tell him... i know he will leave me and take all the kids if he found out... he told me that once... and i dont want to take the risk of telling him... no!!!... definitely not now!

i swear to God that i will never ever repeat the same mistake again... i already woke up to that nightmare i had when i was still with M... i know that to be able to completely correct the mistake, i have to be honest with the Rock and tell him the truth...

but i am still afraid...

i know i would lose him and my kids... i would die if that happens....

maybe someday.... but definitely not now!!!!